Bitter Feelings (Dad’s)
Thursday, April 12th, 2007Mum’s letters aren’t coming as frequently as they used to. I contacted my brother and one of my sisters to see if they are still getting them - they are. So I have no idea if dad’s stopped sending them to me for mum (as he’s the one that manages the computer and email) or if it’s purely co-incidental and they’ve gotten lost in cyberspace somewhere. I got one a couple of weeks ago but none last weekend again.
My brother rang dad on his birthday but didn’t speak to him for too long and mainly chatted with mum. He says dad sounds bitter now. I suffered a brief moment of guilt and then thought ‘why should I feel that way? It wasn’t me who did the wrong thing’.
How I hate what this has done to my family! My 50th is later this year and whilst I’m planning to have a party mum and dad won’t be invited. That saddens me - I’d like to see mum and make sure she’s ok but I won’t invite them here otherwise some of our daughters won’t want to be here and this is the home they grew up in. I really hate that dad’s done this to our family and I guess he never ever thought of the consequences either when he was having his ‘playtime’. Ughh!